Do Dreams Come True?

“For me, the point is not to try to find a point. It’s just to just be fully present to the entire adventure. To be completely immersed in it, no matter the outcome or ultimate meaning (whatever that even is or if there is one). Just to live fully, gratefully, loving with my whole heart, everyday!” – Heidi

That’s the beautiful insight Heidi gave me two weeks ago when I was struggling to wrap my head around all this.

A lot has changed in the last two years! Heidi felt like she was done having kids (after having five!), I was feeling content with two kids, and we both got back into the work field. So, how did this all come about… I mean twins is a big thing! And identical twins just put the cherry on top.

I’m actually laughing as I write this because I feel like I’m in a dream… or that there should be a movie or book written about this. This feels so surreal.

Let’s just take this back a few years and do History 101 for those wondering why we have a surrogate. In March 2017, I got Step A and ended up in a coma, losing my uterus after giving birth to our first child, Everett. Within 3 months we were looking at the option of potentially freezing my eggs.

I was at a women’s group at our church and shared my story to a few ladies who introduced me to Heidi. Now… if you know Heidi, she is so generous, kind, bubbly, so giving, and such a great momma. Let me just tell you – she burst into excited with, “I’ll be your surrogate!!!”. Obviously, she needed to talk it over with her family, and the rest was history.

Now you might think, do dreams actually come true? We all dream at night and during the day. Crazy enough, Heidi has the most detailed and accurate dreams. Déjà vu? Let me share:

-July 2017 – Heidi had a dream that she was going to be a surrogate and we met. -January 2018 – Heidi had a dream I had a thousand eggs and sure enough, I hyper stimulated and had to stop treatment because my health was at risk and we had to wait until the next cycle. -April 2018 – Heidi had a dream we were having a girl, and we had a girl!

After having Faith, our beast of a 10 lb 4 oz baby in December 2018, we were pretty sure Heidi was done. She had expressed that five was probably enough for her… and lets be honest, she was so sick with Faith the entire pregnancy so I didn’t’ blame her! Craig and I were also so grateful to have the ‘Million Dollar Family’ – one boy and one girl. And to be completely honest, I was content. I didn’t want another surrogate because I knew it just wouldn’t be the same and we felt like we were already so blessed – why mess with a good thing. Low and behold!

-July 2020 – Craig, the kids, and I were out taking photos in a canola field near where Heidi lives, and we thought we would just stop in with flowers and some treats. Heidi’s oldest opened the door and let us know her mom wasn’t home but that she had a dream about us… that she was having another baby for us.

Another baby!? I didn’t say anything to Heidi about this because I didn’t want to pressure her, and to be honest I didn’t know in my heart where I stood either.

-August 14, 2021 - Heidi texted: “Man I keep having the most insane dreams about you guys! Are you still wanting to have another baby!? That’s what my dreams are all about! It’s seriously cra cra!”

AHHHHH!!!! My heart definitely skipped multiple beats and I think I fell off my chair….

So here we are! Things progressed very quickly. We were already in the system, we had our embryos frozen, the legal work was already familiar to us, and Heidi still had her A+ uterus according to the doctors haha.

Fast forward a few months to our transfer early November. As we were watching the doctors implant the embryo, Heidi and I both swore that we saw it split! It was so clear that one circle was splitting in to two. However, they told us the embryo was just hatching out of the shell. I mean they’re the experts! What do you think!?

This is the good part! More dreams!

We were about to go for our ultrasound early December and Heidi was joking that she was having dreams that we were having multiples. Craig and I just laughed it off, as we only transferred one… and it’s literally a 1% chance that you would have twins. Here is a comparison from 2 years ago:

As you all read in my last post - our eyes scanned the 7 week ultrasound, not really understanding anything we were looking at, Heidi was thinking she saw two… and I was thinking I saw two as well. When the ultrasound tech said...

“There are two babies. Two heartbeats.”

Heidi immediately burst into laughter… and well, I started crying! Tears of disbelief, excitement, joy, fear – all the emotions! Guess I need to stop second guessing Heidis dreams and start accepting them.

So, Heidi. Boys or Girls? Or are we going to be the very rare case of one boy and one girl?